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Yesterday marked four years of being clean and sober for me. If I’m honest, I didn’t even remember. It’s only that I saw it on my calendar. I’ve gone four years abstinent before so that’s probably why I wasn’t too phased about the occasion. I’ll probably feel more excited next year knowing that it’s a brand new milestone. Four years clean isn’t actually a very long time in the world of addiction recovery. However, my healing journey really started a good twenty-five years

I’ve spent most of my life, unconsciously, trying to prove that I’m worthy through “making” it; both financially and societally. For as long as I can remember I’ve had this inner drive to hustle and bustle – always looking for the next big thing that's going to somehow make me happy. I thought this drive and feeling of being unsatisfied was because I was a person who wanted a life of purpose, a purpose that involved helping people. In what way, I could never seem to really

The ego loves whatever is comfortable , regardless of whether that comfortability makes us miserable or not! This is because one of the ego’s main functions is to determine if something is “safe” for us or not, and it can only do so from recalling past data . Data that has either been personally experienced, or data that has been observed by watching another. The problem with this is that every single experience is unique and the outcome is dependent on a whole gamut of

For many years my life was filled with chaos, drama, and a string of bad relationships, both romantically and platonically. It didn’t matter who came into my life, the same pattern always seemed to play out; me over giving and over sharing, which always resulted in me feeling hurt, used and abused. For years I stayed trapped in this cycle because I believed that I was just a product of bad luck. I truly felt that I was a hard-done-by victim. I was placing all of the blame